living in the society filled with kaypoh aunties, gossipy teens and on top of it all, stupid close minded people, life can be tough.
you can be good at this one thing, win this one medal or attend this one meeting and the next thing you know, half the town knows you. you get talked about, you get mocked at once you make a mistake and above all else, people want to know about you and make fun of you to make themselves feel better. from that, i guess we all now know why we spread rumours.
when you're good at something, you will automatically get noticed because of it. getting noticed means getting attention. it doesn't help that you're good looking either because that would mean girls would go googoogaagaa over you and dream about being mrs.you. and so from the transformation of being a bachelor to being not-available, what do you think the girls who go all droolsy over you have to say? what do you think they would say about your girlfriend to make themselves feel better? think about it.
in a place like where we live, our stupid dumbass closed minded society, all you gotta to do is be SLIGHTLY better than all the rest and instantly you will be called to represent here and represent there and la dee daa dee daa. for being known for what you do, you are automatically demanded to be perfect. in your case, or so you say, your standard is above all your other teammates. not that i would know, you guys are all the same to me. why would stupid close minded people talk bad about you? think about it. they're jealous of you. like DUH!
did i mention that it doesn't help that you're good looking? and that girls who can get hooked to you would obviously want the world to know about it? what if she was those type? why don't you doubt her? why point all the fingers at me?
the stupid thing about rumours is, they get worse and worse from one person to the other. as for me, i was never much of a rumour starter - i was more of the one to describe the rumour when someone tells someone else about it.
example:
starting of rumour: hey did you know she's dating this guy?
person 1 to person 2: hey did you know she's dating this guy coz shes despo for a replacement?
person 2 to person 3: hey i heard she's dating this guy coz she's a **** and he likes those type.
person 3 to person 4: hey this girl ah, my god, so cheap date this guy but nvm la, he playboy, will dump her one.
see what i mean? the fucked up thing about rumours is that, they aren't pretty and they never will be. they won't tell you how sweet something is or how nice someone is. they only tell you the exagerrated part. exagerrated and completely fake! so heck care about what people say about you? why get so worked up when you know that is not the case.
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY ABOUT YOU? GOD! if your family loves you, they will trust and believe you. WHY LET STUPID CLOSEMINDED AUNTIE GOSSIP GET IN THE WAY OF EVERYTHING? DON'T EVERYBODY KNOW AUNTIES ARE ALL LIKE THAT KAYPOH AND SPREAD RUMOURS ONE! GOD! >=O
i was silenced today for being suspected for spreading a completely false rumour. honestly, this is the first time this has happened to me and so far, i don't know how to react to it. worse yet, it involves people i care about, people i love. i still strongly stand my ground and say that i did not spread it. i would never call you a YOUKNOWWHAT and i would never call her a YOUKNOWWHAT so yeah. i have nothing but respect for you and i like her. truly, i like her. she was nice the first time we met and coming as a first impression, i sincerely liked her. so why would i want to spoil it for you? what reasons would i have to take happiness from you? you may not know this but i knew if rumours were to go around, they wouldn't have been pretty and today, i was right, they weren't close to pretty at all. i made mental preparations to keep this within my walls. if it was not going to be in the light, i was fully ready to guard this with my life. yet, you did not believe me when i say it wasn't me nor was it the people i love who spreaded it OR started it.
i'm tired and it's been a long day. as of right now, i am beginning to doubt everything that i have thought was right and maybe, they were all wrong. and i wonder, maybe i should jus sew my mouth so that nothing ever comes out of it ever again. it's like nothing i say is ever right. nothing i do is ever right or good enough for you. would it be better if i just disappeared. is that what you want? for us to disappear from your sight? not only me but me and my loved ones as well? is that what you really want? is this fucked up thing going to drive us down that road? i have a bad feeling it is going to happen. i may have never said this before but i loved you like family. i do - or maybe did was the better word to use. i have no feelings but fear for you now.
it's been a long day and i'm tired. though, like you, i'm sure i won't be able to sleep. i was silenced and accused for something i did not do. where do i go now?
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