like i said i would, i revamped my layout. i don't know about you, but i kind of like it :) i didn't really like the fact that it had to be all black though - it's a bit too dull, but then again, i like the blog picture :) i know i don't look very pretty, okay! don't have to tell me! i know i know, but i can't change who i am so might as well embrace it :)
these past couple of days, i will not deny - i have been quite numb. i found a new anesthetic in mr.pillowtalk. it's like whenever i feel the pain catching up with me, all i have to do is search my msn favourites list and as long as he is on - i am rescued. as of now he is not on, so might as well take this opportunity to prison break here.
as much as possible, i keep myself entertained nowadays. not giving any chance for me to think too much. even when i sleep, i think about the singapore slingers (HAHA!) and somehow, i manage to fall asleep. oh and, for the record, i wasn't delusional. he really did wave at me :) he knew who i was and where i sat :) i was sooooooooooooooooooooo high when he told me :)
i just happened to be slacking this morning. maths tomorrow - gah, not really worried. and whenever i watch tv, the first few channels i flip to are mtv, channel v and e-news. so there i was switching the channel to 714 and this song began to play. oh my gooossssshhhhhh, i can't even begin to tell you how the pain nearly drowned me. it just put everything i had been trying so hard to avoid in front of my f-ing face. honestly, i tried really hard to put up a show. and this song just really burnt the whole show down.
i'm going to literally copy the lyrics here but i suggest you read the lyrics only when you've heard the song. it's my current favourite song. the more i hear it, the more i feel i'm actually sane. i missed this pain, being numb was fun but it wasn't real. so, enjoy :)
you can't take that from me
'cause it's all that you left that's mine
you had to leave
and that's all i can see
but you told me your love was blind
i know there are times you're so impossible
that i should sign a waiver
and you will find someone worth walking on
when you ask me to go
i'll leave when the wind blows
take a breath and away it goes
i'll be outside of your window
i'll pass by but i'll go slow
i'll leave when the wind blows
there was a day
you threw our love away
then you passed it to someone new
you wanna stay
but since you wanna play
we can finally say we're through
i know there are times you're so impossible
and you ask me to go
i'll leave when the wind blows
take a breath and away it goes
i'll be outside your window
i'll pass by but i'll go slow
i'll leave when the wind blows
you can scream they're just echoes
i'll pass outside of your window
you'll be sad that you let me go
i'll leave but just know
as i lay in solitude
oh what's a girl (i editted this part :p ) supposed to do?
i shake the very thought of you, me together
i remember
late nights when i stayed up late all i do is wait and wait
you're never coming home to me
that's the hardest thing to see
i've got to breathe
you can't take that from me
i can finally say we're through
i'll leave when the wind blows
take a breath and away it goes
i'll be outside of your window
i'll pass by but i'll go slow
i'll leave when the wind blows
you can scream they're just echoes
i'll pass outside your window
you'll be sad that you let me go
on every face you'll ever know
and everywhere you'll ever go
you'll feel when the wind blows.
i'm feeling a little more sane already :)
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