i bet it'll be obvious now that my previous posts were all about you. so... if this ruins our friendship, i'm at a point where i can say... whatever.
if you could just open your eyes and understand that i really didn't plan on things to happen the way they did. it's a simple matter, not complicated at all. it's not like we're ready to move in together or that i'm going to lose my virginity or some fucked up shit like that. it's not. but i've already explained that but of course, you took none of it in.
i understand it's not going to be easy and that it's going to take a lot of effort but what i have is determination. if it doesn't work out in the end, i'm just gonna move on. it's not like i've never done it before. i really don't know what you're so worked up about.
like i said, i know your secret and i could have guaranteed that our friendship would not make it through this obstacle if i had blown at you just now. i'm not even sure if our friendship would make it through now...
it's been so long since i've known it and a part of me that loved you as my best bud still can't believe and denies to believe that it's true. yet, there's the other part where it's stupid to not think it's true. it could be just one HUGE misunderstanding but... whatever it is, the damage is already done.
how can you look at me and say those things to me when you're in a relationship with her yourself?
will we make it through this? i don't know. but like you said; whatever.
do whatever makes you happy, friend. whatever makes you happy, makes me happy too. even if it means i can't call you "friend" anymore.
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