what is the meaning of love? i have yet to find the perfect definition.
in the society that we live in, does love really exist? can you really love someone with all your heart and soul?
if you ask me if i believe in love, i would not be able to answer you.
someone once told me that i've never known what love is, to that i think so too.
no matter what hasten beating of the heart i felt, no matter what daydreams i've had, i've never experienced what it means to love.
love may never come for me, i can sort of finally come to terms with that.
i just want you to know that,
it was amazing. hearing your voice. having it spring so suddenly out of no where made it even more special for me. so i thank you.
you know, i couldn't stop smiling. it was one of the higher lights of my day. so thank you for that too.
love may never come for me, i know that now.
but even so, i can't help but wish that hopefully,
it will one day find me.
ok, i know i should be asleep right now because i have to wake up early for my driver's lessons (yay!) and my extra accouting class (roar!) but I'M JUST SO EXCITED!
i can't say what yet and it really sucks that i can't because i want to blurt it out so badly BUT i won't. i'll be a good girl and wait till tomorrow when it's official then blurt it all over here.
-went away for 5 mins-
I'M STILL SO EXCITED! oh gosh. am going crazy here. when you have bad news, you just don't really want anyone to know about it and no matter how people try and force it out of you, there's no way you will go about talking about it. but when it's EPIC GOOD NEWS, how the hell do you control yourself and NOT SAY ANYTHING? this is going to be an awesome but also difficult challenge for me. JUST ONE DAY! ONE DAY! the first person i am going to tell? MUM! she's going to be so happy! YAY YOU!
urgh. shut up, i am not lesbian, not getting married, not pregnant and definately not pregnant, thank you very much.
i don't know why i'm so excited really. and i didn't really understand why i was so excited until a good buddy of mine, nick, told me this - when you're at the 4th floor and you look up to 7th floor, it's going to look like meh, nothing. but when you walk down the stairs to the ground floor, and you try lift your head up again and look at the 7th floor, you'll be going WOAH! that high up? 4th floor being your normal emotions on a daily basis. 7th floor being a good news. ground floor being your sad fillings (oops!) feelings at the time.
i've been stuck on the ground floor for a couple of months now and i really have no idea how a small good news can seem so good to me now but it does. i really can't wait for october, it's even worse now that i am so looking forward to christmas! if it ever happens. OH GOD, PLEASE LET IT HAPPEN!
i really can't wait to break the news when it's finally official tomorrow, buddy. and if you ever come by and visit this place, my blog i mean, i really wanna just tell you out and about now that i'm so glad you shared this with me first. and how this little good news has just lit up my life. it gives me something to actually look forward to and hopefully, make the time go by faster!
i'll be praying that you'll have a safe trip. i'll be praying to seeing you very soon.
until tomorrow or whenever i drop by again,
