je vous vois.

i've been pondering this subject for a week and i have finally decided to let the cat out of the bag. yes, i think i'm in love.


ola bloggers =)


it's been probably around my correct interval to blog. you know me. i only blog when i have something about myself that i'd like to express. recently, so many began blogging. it's chaotic. keeping up in track to see who and who got new blogs or who and who changed their link is tiring but thankfully, i'm not a complainer.

i'm glad. blogging is a thing i enjoy doing alone in my room. away from the busy world and away from noise that may disrupt my mind from concentrating on this hobby. it has become my sanctuary. usually, an hour or two away from the world, we all have known to be cruel. i'm glad that other people, so to say good friends of mine, have also found that sanctuary. may you be blessed with everlasting peace.

for the first time in a long time, i am at peace. life, has become meaningless recently. senseless even. but, i shall not complain for today is a day for an announcement.

i've been pondering this subject for a week and i have finally decided to let the cat out of the bag. yes, i think i'm in love.


what does it mean to be in love?
something, i have never truely understood.

commitments?
something, i've always had been too afraid to make.

marriage?
something, i hope, would only happen in my worst nightmares.


but, all that doesn't involve with if a person or me is being in love or not.
when you're in love, you can look at another man and feel nothing.
no daydreams, no wondering what would have been or what could have been.
no imagining if this happened or that.
no thinking twice on the decision you've made to give yourself to this man.
no looking back and say things like, "urgh! i should have never loved you."

when you love someone, you give your heart, your soul, your mind & your everything. you may not admit when you're reading this but i'm pretty sure you know that your conscience is beating the tibetan drums in your ear. i'm guessing if you, my dear reader is around the age of 12-14, you would have no idea what i am talking about. trust me, you may have heard this a lot, but, i've been there :)

the young me, crave to be in a relationship. to a point of desperation, a guilt i had to admit. the " me" now, just loves to be in love. heck, if no commitments are involved. heck, no plans getting married. being in love feels so good just the way it is.

the way he calls your name, just the way you want to hear it.
the way he touches your hair, just the way you like it.
the way hugs you, so you could feel his warmth.
the way he looks at you, like nothing else in this world ever mattered.

i'm pretty sure, 2 years from now, i will revisit this post and laugh at myself. for loving to be in love so much. by then, i expect myself to think completely different. but, we'll never know. that's just life; unpredictable.

by now, i guess you'd be waiting for me to expose who this "man" is. haha, that's a secret i'll never tell. you know you love me. xoxo. hmm... now where did i heard that bitchy catch phrase from? haha.






whitney. signing out.

ryan gosling
&
rachel mcadams

i wouldn't usually have the patience to wait for ALL the pics to load so you can see how special and close this movie is to my heart.

watch it. you will not regret =D

whitney. signing out.

can you believe it? i found time to blog! i rarely have that kinda time thats why the interval between my posts are so big =S sorry all =D thanks for always staying loyal and checking up this blog whenever you can =D you know who you are even if you never bothered to leave a message at the shoutout ==' doesn't matter! i know that you do check and that you do care, that's all that really matters, right? =]

i remembered myself randomly chatting with daniel one day a few good months ago. and he said hey whi, listen to this new song from chris brown. its totally awesome. i didn't buy it as i was never a big fan of chris brown. no air was alright to me. it's just a very addictive song... at that point in time, fe was the chris brown freak =p

so then during psk with soohung, chinting, xuru, vivian, xinxin, ong, haqim and all others, i decided to give chris brown a go and i was SWEPT OF MY FEET by chris brown with the song entitled:

SUPERHUMAN

HAHAs! it was that bad. i'd bring the song everywhere i go in my phone. even to the showers! soon towards the end of our trip of psk, everybody knew the name of that song.

and then when june hols were over i told fe about it and she DENIED that the song was good. the addiction towards the song died down too sooner or later as i moved on the songs that were in my previous posts.

TO MY SURPRISE! felis navidad started loving the song... MUAHAHA! i own-ed her =P like she owned me for loving her "THUNDER BABYY THUNDER!! EEEEE...." =p

today, 05/11/08, i've once again fallen in love with the song. i mean literally like the first time i gave it a second chance =D especially after seeing the official music video~ oh GAWSH i love Superhuman! =D

give it a go! who knows? you might be the next person to come up to me and tell me you love it too =p





whitney. signing out.

it's been a while since i blogged and i've noticed, september was probably the month i emo-ed the most. whatever, i got over it =) that's a good thing i guess.

i've recently made a new friend! =) his name is kenito aka leechongwei. and yeah, i'm wong mew choo! HAHAs. ok, that was so dry =='. but yes, whitney then who RARELY socializes has made a new friend and she promises to cherish this friendship <-- sounds kinda fake to me =/ HAHAs but yeah, i'm glad i made a new friend and that we share so much in common =) our top priority = BADMINTON! :]

like i said, i haven't been emo-ish recently so there really is nothing to blog about. if you wanted to know how my life is like daily, i guess my blog would be the first blog to be off your list of followups =p

i've recently got a new fav song! yes, the lyrics are very "jiwang"?
i hate this part - pussycat dolls

OMG! PUSSY! HAHAs. don't be yellow. i ain't dirty-minded =x

i love that song~ it reminds me of a lot of things in the past. different things i shared with different people and the things that have helped me become what i am today. i won't bother to lyrics it out for you guys. gr! i know you never read them anyways x]

i had a hard time choosing the title for this post because this post isn't emo or anything. just needed to update it before somebody thought i was dead or something. HAHAs. and thus, i chose linger. a sentence in my new fav song;

" i can't take it any longer, thought that we were stronger
all we do is linger, slipping through my fingers."

my friend, john and i are at better speaking terms =) i like it this way. i've been a while since we last catched up and i think as much as i'd like to be his right hand person, i can't. you always need some time apart from the people you love(as friends =x) and the distance did us good. we can now joke about almost anything. well... ANYTHING would be more like it =p

i've got a joke to share! hope you guys like this one. i got it from Sophia Chin of my class and boy, i laughed my arse out. HAHAHAs.

there were these 3 people: A, B & C
they were captured by red indians
the red indians told them to into the forest to pick up some fruits.
A came back with 3 apples.
the red indians told him to stick it up his "anus" and if he made any expressions, he would be shot down and be in heaven.
so as A stuffed the 2nd apple into his "anus", he couldn't take it and began crying.
BANG! he was shot and he went to heaven.
next, it was B's turn.
he came back with 8 grapes.
as he was stuffing the last grape into his "anus", he began laughing.
BANG! he too was shot and went to heaven.
in heaven, A asked B.
"why did you laugh, B? weren't you almost finish with your last grape?"
B replied, "when i was stuffing the last grape, i looked up and saw C carrying 2 watermelons."

did you get the joke? how are you suppose to stuff watermelons into your ANUS?!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. that really gave me a good laugh.



alright, i guess imma stop now. sorry this post is so random. like i said, i just needed to update it =]







whitney. signing out.