0 cry

when was the last time you cried because you felt like it? not because you sprained your ankle or you injured your wrist or simply just had a bruise but rather, just cried out of the mere fact that you felt like it.


dear bloggers,

it's been a while and i've missed this place. i look through my list of posts and see over a dozen drafts. mere drafts i never had intentions of posting. mere drafts that meant nothing to me.

a year has passed. well technically, 2008 and 2009. alright alright, 4 months roughly, i suppose.

life, has never seemed to surprise me by filling me in with different sorts of events everyday. events that tear you apart and then leave you with guardian angels to guide you back onto the right track. happy memories and painful memories alike. yet somehow, painful memories or rather, raw pain, always overshadows what matters the most, love.

i read a good book today. a book, i'd love to share with all of you. it made me cry my eyesockets out but yet, it felt good.

it's been a while since i cried because i felt like it. it's been awhile since i was even strong enough to cry. cry not because i was betrayed, hurted, trampled over or misunderstood. cry because it was time to cry. cry because i wanted to. cry because i needed to shed that wall i've been trying ever so shakily to support. cry because i knew it would do me good.

i'm keeping this post short. hiatus was fun but spiritually draining at the same time. i guess blogging was a drug to release everyday stress and when you cut my source, it becomes so tiring and so reluctant to face every day. sometimes, i pray for a good day. sometimes, all i pray for is a day without pain. sometimes, all i want is to genuinely smile. sometimes, i don't get any of it at all.

i have a feeling, i'll be sleeping good tonight. welcome back, whitney.

love xoxo.

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