i feel like it's been forever since i've been here. it sounds cheesy and stupid but i feel like i've grown since then. we are constantly growing - backwards and forwards. it all depends on how we view things. you could be optimistic; you could be pessimistic; you could be wired to the moon; you could be realistic.
it really is hard to see you pass me by. i feel my throat tighten and it's as if i might start sweating. i know i shouldn't be having these feelings, especially not now but sometimes some things just can't be helped. sometimes, love is like a thorn, the tighter you hold it the more it hurts.
our greatest enemy is not the war, it is not the people who could probably hurt us, it is not the apocalypse. it is time. time binds you to where you are - trapping you. but yet, it still constantly moves, with or without you.
i long for happiness. to be able to rely on that someone completely. to love and be loved without restraints. but, there is nothing and no one worth your complete trust in this world other than yourself. the moment you lean on someone, you'll lose the strength to remain standing. and when that person leaves, you'll end up with nothing but yourself slamming against the ground.
i got a few of these quotes from the movie - Summer's Desire. it is an AWESOME series. everybody should watch it. it brings you back to one of the most basic form of love - possessiveness, jealousy, lost and love. i had a great time watching this series and falling head over heals for one of the main actors - Peter Ho.
i might come up with stills from the movie soon, which i'm sure i will VERY SOON. in the mean time, i'm busy with school, life and everything in between.
i actually bought myself a diary which i promised i would write in, but so far, the motivation has failed me - gloriously.
i feel like dropping everything i am doing now and just have a backpack and maybe my phone for music, novels and camera and just leave. well, i don't earn my own money yet so that means i can't. that's a huge bummer, for your information. but if i could go anywhere, i would start with Egypt. then Venice. then Barcelona. then Korea. then China. then France. and then to the rest of the world.
in business studies, according to maslow's hiearchy of needs, the highest need of an individual reaches peak at our self actualization. my self actualization is to travel the world. and leave invisible footprints everywhere.
till then, i will be working very very very hard to achieve my physical needs, safety needs, social needs and esteem needs :)
and until then,
au revoir, i love you very much.
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